Dear Martha because many of us have lost loved ones to the "enemy" death we sorely grieve for them and we sorely miss them. We are simply never really prepared in our heart to let them go completely. The reason being is that death is not natural or normal. Everyone desires to live on and on. No one wants to die according to what the Bible says at Ecclesiastes 3:11. We try and take care of ourselves to the best of our abilities. We make our doctors appointments, exercise regularly, get sufficient rest, eat balanced meals, try and think positive, we try and surround ourselves with positive individuals and keep ourselves busy with positive deeds, etc., yet we still grow old, get sick and die. Even the healthiest person is not exempt from disease and illness at some point in their lives. Please, know that according to God's Word we, humankind, was not created to die or die from the endless list of illnessses and diseases that plague humans today. Because of sin inherited from Adam and Eve, that is why we all get sick and die (Genenis 2:15-17).
Thankfully, God, Jehovah has promised and given us His Word that all the ill effects of inherited sin will be reversed in time (Isaiah 33:24, Job 33:25)....A beautiful miracle called the resurrection will soon be performed during a period in our coming history. This miracle will allow those who have lost loved ones to death to be able to see them again, alive and full of life. We will be able to hold them in our arms and let them know how much we've missed them. You will be able Martha to catch up on 'missed opportunities" with them and so forth (John 11:1-44; Isaiah 26:19; Acts 24:15 and Revelation 21:4,5).
Martha, I will be praying for you that Jehovah may graciously and compassionately grant you continued peace of mind and peace of heart...Please know that there are those who are praying for your best interest and being. Take care of yourself and Always know that God is a ready source of great comfort (Philippians 4:6,7; Psalms 9:9; Isaiah 41:10,13)
Tempestt ... Thank you for your lovely message. I am Protestant and do believe in my faith. I must admit it has taken me sometime to get back into believing because of the loss of my spouse in 2011. I have never feared death, but living without your beloved that takes your breath away. It's about surviving loneliness; over-whelmness and the daily fight to survive in any way we can. I know I will see my husband again, but it's a struggle (I am not young anymore) to wait for that time. I take baby steps and try to do the best I can each day as it comes.
I hope you are well and getting along well. May you have peace and joy each day.
My grandmother died on the 22nd of January. She was a month short of her next birthday. She did have cancer, but that isn't what took her in the end. Toward the end she had the later stage of dementia as I understood it. I have to keep telling myself she was in her 80's and did live a full life. I hurt so much right now that I feel like some took my heart out and stomped on it.