Helllo Cari!  Yes, it helped me (this site) that is how I found the "member" page in the first instance, by stumbling upon the information I was looking for.  I've bought Theresa Rando's book but haven't yet been able to read it, but will.

The story of my husband's death will probably come out over time, as and when I have the energy to share it.  In short he died suddenly of a brain aneurysm, which he lapsed into a coma on Christmas Day, had two brain surgeries on Christmas Day and Boxing Day, but deteriorated whilst in the coma for a month until he -- it is very difficult just now for me to keep telling the story.  Bye for now.

Cari, I am so sorry for your loss and even sorrier I have to welcome you on this rolercoaster ride called grief.  You will find within this site we are all grieving, we are all in different stages of grief.  We do understand your pain and we pass no judgements.  As you begin this journey you will also find you are not crazy and your feelings are real.  There are no time frames in which you need to follow and it is a baby step process where there will be days you will take one step forward and 2 steps back.  The first year is the year of numbness so try not to make any life altering decisions.

I lost my husband of 23 years 14 months ago and it feels like yesterday.  This is something you will never get over you just find a new normal to get through it.  It truly is a nightmare that we live every waking hour.  Stay strong my new friend because tomorrow always comes.  Hugs, Jane P.