dear hurting so much time has passed the months go on and on and I thought my pain would get better.  No it doesn't sometime being alone with my thoughts i turn to God and say why God do I have to feel like this? He says I was the strong one to go on alone, but I don't feel that strong any one else feel like I do.  My grown children live their lives, I have great grandchildren I don't see that often and it hurts me too I'm hoping I truly meet someone someday to feel the gaps and hours to feel happiness again and love it may happen I hope it does.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

dear hurting so much time has passed the months go on and on and I thought my pain would get better.  No it doesn't sometime being alone with my thoughts i turn to God and say why God do I have to feel like this? He says I was the strong one to go on alone, but I don't feel that strong any one else feel like I do.  My grown children live their lives, I have great grandchildren I don't see that often and it hurts me too I'm hoping I truly meet someone someday to feel the gaps and hours to feel happiness again and love it may happen I hope it does.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

thanks for getting back to me I still check in once in awhile and read the posting on Legacy.  It has been almost 10 months since I lost Jimmy he is missed so much I just have my routine everyday and try not to be depressed.  I'm on oxygen and have my health problems I will be 62 next month.  The Holidays were tough for me I was all alone family had their Christmas's but I was left here by myself.  It seems I wasn't important at all to them.  I didn't have any presents to open except my youngest daughter gave me money by phone to get the ereader I was talking about I did appreciate her gift.  I've come to realize that happiness is within and I have to take care of myself and not depend on anyone else.  I hope so much you are happy too we have to go on with our lives God has a plan for everyone and I believe Jimmy is happy with God in heaven and he would want me to be happy.  Take care and write to me when you can you are special.

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Thank you! You have helped me more than you could ever imagine! I am so sorry for your loss! God Bless You! Kim

It's been a long six months although I'm crying a little less I still feel so empty inside. Everyday I long for a hug, a kiss, and seeing his beautiful green eyes they were amazing and I always saw love in his eyes. I am the disabled one on oxygen 24/7 he took care of me, watched over me and worried about me. So losing him on March 26th was the worst day of my life. I log on to the site to know others are grieving as I am God has a plan he is my strength but having support here helps too, God bless everyone and take care

Hope you are ok , my fellow day counter.
Thinking of you and sending love and hugs.

Hurting my son is refusing to talk at the moment but my daughter is starting to talk more about their Dad. It is still so raw that I burst into tears all day. I am starting counseling next Monday with an apparently good counselor. My son Lee is holding up the grieving process by not talking about Fernando and it makes me feel so useless because I thought we could talk about anything in this family. I will try and feel it he is the right person for me and if he is not then i will have to change to someone I am comfortable. To be honest maybe a counselor is not the best way to go for me but I am looking at other options such widows group(s)who have gone through the same situation as me. I think we got to try something once. Good to hear from you.

I am not that good because Fernando's Birthday in 10 days. My daughters Birthday was yesterday. I am feeling very soar and depressed constantly crying. How things going for you? How is the family doing? I have made an appointment for a counsellor, just to try it it works?