Hi Haunani,I'm here in Ga.on the east coast are you in hawaii?The closest beach to me is Florida where we all went for vacation at Dayotna Beach.Water can be relaxing as many things can be but sometimes there is no where you can go without thinking of your baby.Talk with you soon,you can write me anytime you like.

Hi Haunani,your thoughts are great as I read I thought how can one approach a parent wwho has lost a child as you said most will not say anything because they don't know what to say,so formone parent to another your love is what keeps you going and people will let you down but you must follow your heart and your heart will lead you right .I've had a rough time getting to 4 years,I still cry on a dime and never worry if someone is watching for I'll never apologize for the pain in my heart for my child and neither should anyone else,this is a pain that occurs at the spur of the moment but it does get better as the years go by.We all wonder why we could not have done more and that answer lies with God if we had forknowledge of all things then we would stop things that should happen & allow things that should be stopped,even at our best the decision could come back to haunt us,my desire for my daughter to live would have rendered her a vegatable and that I didn't want and I agonize with the fact that she had to leave that way.But there are three more people that have gained life because she was an organ donor and these three people have the chance to live and do great things.My heart is at peace.I pray that as the days go by you gain peace and rest for your soul.Be Blessed!!!!