"God Bless everyone on this site. i havent posted anything in a while, but i do read everyone's post. I too lost my lil brother on May 25, 2011. Its been 14 months. Not a day goes by i dont think about him. I miss his text n phone calls. i must…"
"Not good at words Jerica, but wanted to say hello and God is with us even though it doesn't seem like it . My son commted suicide Dec.22,2010 and I have good days and bad days. I am trying to get some friends and family…"
"Thank you theresa n carla! It was hard yesterday. I had family support n my back bone which is my wife Diana :-) I feel a lil better today. Actually going to my lil sister's bbq to celebrate in his honor. I know he would like that! :-) to…"
"Today makes one year that my lil brother committed suicide..... went to his grave n puts flowers and said a prayer. May u rest in peace.... :'( i wanna cry so bad, but no tears r coming down.. y is that?! :("
"Hello to all, havent been on for a while. this May 25th is gonna be 1 year that my lil brother took his life by shooting himself. Ive gotten better as time has gone by, but sill think about him everyday. Tomorrow is my mom's birthday (may 24)…"
"I havent been here for a while, but i see the posting once in a while. My heart goes out to everyone here. I lost my little brother to suicide as well, he shot himself on 5/25/11 and his girlfriend found him. Soon it will mark his 1 year of his…"
"Hi Guys, this sounds very interesting! Please put me on.... do you know if they have one in New York City? :) i would really like to participate! Today i had a very bad meltdown, like i wailed out!! Scream and cried! I have never done that. But…"
"@Theresa, thanks for lighting a candle, I will b doing the same for all of us. :-) also I too have my brothers 1st year anniversay of his death, it will beon May 25th. My god the time has flown by. I don't know how to feel at this point. I rem…"
"Hey Everyone, hope everyone is ok. I've been ok recently. I also been seeing a therapist. I just started like 2 sessions, but i see lil progress. :) I guess as time goes by i will be n do better. Its been 10 months that my lil brother has taken…"
"@Donna, i did go to therapy, i cant say that it helped but i gave it a try. she would like to c me again. we didnt get to talk alot but at least she knows wat im going thru and will be more prepare for me next time. She will try to find a support…"
"Also i will be seeing a therapist starting tomorrow. I'm still having a hard time grieving. So maybe a stranger can help. Plz dont get me wrong, this site does help alot and i get to write my feelings down. I just think i need to vent out on…"
"@Karen, we are here for you just like Donna said. My lil brother shot himself on May 25, 2011 a day after my Mother's Birthday and buried him on my Birthday May 31st. So i know this birthday is gonna be tough for me. But u will find that the…"
"@Carin beautiful poem!! Its exactly wat I think n everyone else too. On feb 27 it was my lil brothers bday n I went to the cementary to spend it wit him. I cn say that I was glad I was there n I know he appreciated me being there as well. I cried, I…"
Not good at words Jerica, but wanted to say hello and God is with us even though it doesn't seem like it . My son commted suicide Dec.22,2010 and I have good days and bad days. I am trying to get some friends and family together for Chuck's b/d which is June 8 . We did this last yr. and let off balloons. Most don't want to do it but that is okay. I talk to God every day and thank him for the time we had with Chuck, he was 37.
Jerica, just wanted to let you know, today I said a little prayer especially for you and your brother. I know how hard these birthday's can be. I'm sorry you can't spend it with him or say "Happy Birthday" over the phone. I'm sure you have said it out loud many times today. All of us here in this group know exactly what you are going through today. We may grieve differently from each other, but that's ok......the hurt is known universal. Please be strong.
Praise the Lord my new friend. Hope this finds you well. It will soon be Christmas and I pray that alll is well with you.It will be 1 yrl. Dec. 22 that my son Chuck died. Not a day goes by that I don't think about him. I believe that he is in heaven with his father and our heavenly Father. We plan to go to his gravesite on the day and put yellow roses on, his favorite color. Blessings to everyone, Love Jackie Rowles
Hi Jerica I got your message and I've been doing well, leaving on a cruise next week and the Anniversary of my Andy's death is slowly approching 12/10 and I just can't get in the holiday spirit it will be hard but I will have a lot of family around us and I hope your doing well..................Stay in touch
Hi Jerica, There is definitely nothing wrong with not thinking of him every day!! This is Gods way of helping us begin to live out our own lives. It hurts like hell to lose our loved ones. Our bodies cannot handle the grief on a daily basis. If we are to get back to a somewhat normal life , we must move on! I think what happens is that we begin to remember the good times more, and the pain lessens as time goes on!!
No problem!! We need to stick together so we have someone to talk to that understands. If I let myself I can remember everything, but I don't dare. Gunshots are so messy and I need to remember her beautiful face!!! I would give anything not to be the one who found her!!!
It's good that you are remembering the good times!! They help you get by the rough periods. I was lucky to have people around me to help me, and remind me of how funny and mischievous she could be. I hang on to those moments as though my life depends on it!!!!
Thank you for the response and please right again!!
I cry everyday for Andy and it does get a little easier and sometimes I can laugh at the silly things he would say and do, but at times it hurts like hell so try to stay strong and together maybe we can get better..............:)
My son also had a wife and six children three of his and three of hers , we have so much in common and it's been nine months and it still hurts as bad as it did the day it happened and the sad thing is when they called me I was 700 miles away, my husband drove all night to get me back home to Michigan..................