"Jane, sending hugs to you. your right about one day at a time and it does seem like sometimes its minute by minute .we do what we can at our own pace .good luck with your new house .i lost my son 10/29/10 and some days it all seems all new…"
"Bless your heart Tracy my heart goes out to you. my son also committed suicide its a very hard thing to deal with theres to many what ifs its been 2 yrs this past oct . still very hard . not a day goes by that i dont remember that sad day .have to…"
"Dearest, Brenda, my heart breaks for you wish i could give you a hug and tell you everything would be ok .i know you,ve probably heard take one day at a time.i lost my son oct 29th 2012 and it seems like yesterday i miss him so badly i hurt. but we…"
"carin,watched your video,you did a wonderful job honoring your son,he had such a beautiful smile thats what everyone always said about my son anthony .i wish you peace wish i could give you a hug .blessing to you love Daphne"
"dearest Carin,you are so right about the loss of your child to suicide brings your world down around you the pain is unbearable at times, i have so many whys and regrets.i feel your pain .wishing for you some peace,and for all. on this site.big hugs…"
"My heart goes out to you and your babies Meliza,i know it cant be easy for you to find the right words to tell the little ones .my you find some peace will keep all of you in my thoughts and prayers hugs .love Daphne"
Thank you for your comments, Daphne. I think it is so tragic that so many people can relate. You must hurt so desperately too. I'm so sorry for your loss. Interesting how hollow those words seem when you know they can't possibly due justice to an impossible situation. Keep your head up. I will not let depression take me like it took my brother and sister. In fact, the reality of my brother's death has shaken something inside of me and in a twisted way made me stronger -- sometimes. Sometimes it just takes me to my knees.
Dear Theresa, thank you for taking time to read about my little Christmas rose from Anthony and i also believe in these things that they are blessings . when it is your child its very hard to keep your head up and body moving .im doing my best .we lost Anthony early morning on oct 29th as we were heading home i just lost it asking myself how i was supposed to get thru this .i looked up there on side of road was a big as life billboard all pink that said do it because i love you mom.he always said theres nothing wrong with guys who like the color pink.i said you are totally right .my sons are also identical twins when they were small if one fell the other was soon to follow.Anthony was a very caring and loving person .thank you for your prayers we all need them i will be praying for you also .i will relay to my son your kind words .i was so worried about him im praying that he does find the ability to let go of the guilt im trying to do that also .blessing to you. again than you for your kind words .Daphne Vaughn
Dear Daphne, I enjoyed reading about your Thanksgiving-Christmas rose from Anthony! Those things are such blessings when they occur, aren't they! I really feel for your surviving son, his twin. I have friends who are identical twins so I understand the profound connection they share. Unfortunately, it also causes too much sense of failed responsibility and turmoil for him. I was probably the closest to my son so I blame myself very much the same way, but we are not God, not the savior, not the all knowing one. I will pray for your remaining son to have the spiritual and therapeutic supports he needs around him to help him to be able to get over the guilt over his brother's death and the ability to let go of it. It is not our burden to bear, I am finally starting to realize.
Thanks... I still hhurt so bad inside I don't know what to do. I have thought about joining her but can't do that because of my daughter and grandkids.
I try everything to make myself belive it's nothing but a nightmare and at some point I will wake up and she'll be laying next to me.. I can't go and talk to anyone because i'm not that type of person to tell someone else my problems so I just put on a smile and make people think everything is alright. Going back to work don't help matters at all I thought it might ease the pain a little but I drive truck and all I do is think about her. Well thanks again but I have togo i'm starting to cry.