"Dear Helen, I am sorry for your loss, focusing on the good memories that you have of thirty years together can and will help you but after 3 years you must get on with some of the things that we share here like baby steps, getting thru each day, if…"
"Kathy I am sorry for your loss, the anger and resentment that you feel is very hard on you. I did a little research and from what I read it is not normal for the ex spouse to be mentioned in an obituary the reason being is that they are…"
"Dick my heart goes out to you, my husband also died suddenly. There is no time whatsoever to prepare for the nightmare you have entered. I know the gut wrenching pain that comes with such loss, the numbness, confusion, fatigue, just…"
"Dear Stacy I am so sorry for your loss, with so little time having passed I am sure that you will be pretty much numb on your birthday but like Carol said it so well, try to have a good day and be kind yourself. Every night I ask God to…"
"Janice, I'm so very sorry for your loss! No, I don't see this grief thing getting any better, I will NEVER be "right" anymore. I know that ! I'm only going on 12 weeks, I'm so empty,lost and just SO SAD always. I hope…"
"I lost my husband almost six months ago now. I have decided that it doesn't get better, it is something that you carry with you throughout the rest of your days. Some good days and some bad days but we just go on living. …"
"Yes Cindy I see you posts, sorry for your loss. I lost my husband five months ago, in Vegas. I have learned in the time since he passed that I will not get over this some days are better than others, most of the time I think that I am…"
"dear Rhonda, i am so sorry for your loss, for the grief you and your children are going thru and for the continuing medical problems that you are facing. Hopefully you have family around that will be able to help you with your children. Just know…"
"Dear Marcy, Grief is the most deceptive emotion that I know off. It doesn't seem to matter to it where we think we are on the timeline, it has it own way of steamrolling over us at any time of the day or night. It sounds like…"
"Dear Jean, I really have to agree with you that getting this new life going isn't really all that it is cracked up to be. I am facing an anniverisary... 4mos the first and I have really been having a very difficult time, I feel the grief…"
"Yes Faith I know, if I didn't have my faith I do not want to think where I would be, I guess that I was more so addressing the earthly issues. Jesus is always there and some days I talk to Him almost constantly but I guess as far as goal…"
"Lori I do so know what you mean about being just me, it has been 4 months for me since my dear husband passed away suddenly. I am trying desperately hard to realize that I need to drop the "we thinking"I am not that person…"
Janice, I'm so very sorry for your loss! No, I don't see this grief thing getting any better, I will NEVER be "right" anymore. I know that ! I'm only going on 12 weeks, I'm so empty,lost and just SO SAD always. I hope we can stay in touch. Please let me know u received this message. I keep thinking I am joining in on conversations, and I don't know where my comments are going? I just wind up reading everyone elces posts. Oh wella, it helps me anyway. I hope u get this. Hug. Cindy
Was your home area really that bad? Had you lived there long? So now you live with your son? Alot of changes. Tell me about your loss, if you want. I do not know your story.
I too have that memorial service, coming up. I dread it. .I thought without a doubt, I was going to bring my husbands ashes here...can't do it. Can't pick them up. I have to go and pick a small personal urn. So I can keep some of the ashes here, I think I want to do that...but who knows?, I have to do this soon, but have no idea how. I can't think of anybody to ask to help me. I will wait until God tells me... Going to lisen to our Bible study now, gn, Lord bless...
Janice, I am so sorry for your loss and even sorrier you had to join this group. You will find throughout this grieving process there are no timeframes and there are no right or wrong answers. It is now about you and how you feel or what makes you feel better. My husband passed 11 months ago after 17 months of dealing with lung cancer and no matter how you look at it there is NO GOOD WAY to die if you are the survivor. Watching him deteriorate for these months did not make his passing any easier. I found that time passes, the months change and I still am in limbo. But I try to move forward only looking back for the memories that brought us together. Stay strong, come here often if only to read posts. Hugs, Jane P.
I hope we can be of help to each other. My Charlie died 7 weeks ago today and he was 66. We have been married for 45 years (while we were both in college). We are almost at the same spot on this terrible road.
Charlie had a lung transplant almost 9 years ago. Before that he had been on oxygen 24/7. Without the transplant he would have been gone then. He did well as lung transplants go (5 years is a good outcome) We became a little complacent. We always just thought he would have a slow decline. In March he broke his wrist badly enough to need surgery. Although he was released the next day we returned to the hospital that night. His oxygen level was really low and his heart beat was irregular. I had awakened him to take meds. They tell me now that if I had not called 911 he most likely would have died in his sleep (don't really know how I feel about that). As it was he spent a torturous month in ICU far from our home. Either my brother or I was with him almost every minute. He was intubated 3 times. He had pneumonia.(no immune system because of post transplant drugs). His kidneys failed and he was on fulltime dialysis. He suffered a painful hematoma in the groin. All this time because he was intubated and his right wrist was broken he could hardly communicate with me. Of course, I kept telling him I loved him, but we never had "that" conversation. I kept thinking somehow we would get through everything and we would talk later. As a final straw he had a perforated bowel and could not have surgery. On Easter Sunday I had to make the decision to let him go. He died 30 hours later with me holding on to him and telling him how much I loved him. I can still see him take his last breath.
I hope you don't mind me piling these details on to you. I will gladly listn to your story.
I can't realy see an end to this grief. I truly feel I have nothing to live for. I have gotten some help on this website. Talking about Charlie always helps me for a while. Maybe you can find the same comfort.