I am fed up. i don't care what happens tome.  my son died 2 days before Christmas 2009. far as i am concerned nothing to live for anymore. Decorated his grave this weekend,s houldn't have to be doing this. No support from family or friends, just hubby and I .  Hubby had a massive heart attack and 5 bypasses on September 25.  He is fine now but i think stress helped it along.  Can't take anymore. First cousins funeral yesterday.  Four deaths since 2009 in December of family members right before Christmas. I am done.