I'm having a tough time dealing with the loss of my Uncle.

I know its a shock for everyone and me on my father's side of the family.

When I found out that my Uncle was dying and then the day after he died when I received the 

sad news about my Uncle. I didn't realize how bad I'd be taking the loss of him.

I'm very much in pain and alot of heart ache over the loss of him.

I really can't understand why I'm sooo very very hurt by the loss of  him.

He'll always be in my heart and he'll never be forgotten.

He died of Cancer and Aging Orange cause he was in the Vietnam War and it never really gotten to him til past many  months ago. 

He has 17 brothers and sisters and my Dad is one of the 18 of them.

There's 3 siblings gone long with my Grandma and Grandpas , my Aunt and Cousin, I don't wanna find out whose next.   :/ 

R.I.P Uncle Bud!

This has been really hard for me to take  and I don't know when or how I'm ever gonna feel better about this.

And Also I've had 2 sons that have past when they was just born and that was real tough for me and my Husband to take. And now I've gotta deal with the loss of my Uncle. I hope in time I'll get better but I know the way I feel saddened and heartbroken about my Uncle, I don't think will really go away.