Hi Corrine,

Thanks for thinking of me. I am doing better, but things will never be great again as I'm sure you know. It seems like I take a small step forward then a giant leap back. Some days are still much harder than others. I was laid off from my job most of the winter and just went back to work last week and am very thankful for that because sitting home with my thoughts all day is not good. I know your Joe and my Jerry are with us and will always be in our hearts. I talk to Jerry everyday whether he can hear me or not. Not one night has gone by since his death that I haven;t told him I love him and miss him. Some people say they get signs from their loved ones. I wish I did.

Thank you for thinking of me. Yesterday was the first day I haven't cried alot.

Charles has been gone 4 months and my heart feels like it was yesterday but my mind still can't grasp that he won't be back. I wouldn't bring him back if I could. I wouldn't want him to go thru the bad days again. I know I will see him in heaven again. My 9 year old graddaughter reminded me of that just yesterday. We were sitting in church and she got to looking in his bible at his highlighted passages and she said his spirit was with Jesus and we would all be together again. i know I have to be strong for her.

I was just thinking about you & wanted to see how are you doing.

I am sorry I haven't check on you sooner.

Had some really tough days.

I am glad Valentines Day is over.

 

my is such a long story but i will try to cut it short and thanks for asking to hear it.my husband was a hard working good man. one morning he woke up wit a little discomfort in his chest and left arm i took him to er where they said he had a heart attack. the next am the dr. did an angiogram and came out and told me my husband may have an abdomanal anurysim cause he had a hard time getting the wire through. well apprently the wire tore the annurysum and threw debri down to his feet cause his toes started turning blue. he eventually lost his right leg below knee and half of his left foot. The drs in new orleans  who rellaced the aorta with a graft said he had to clamp so close to kidneys he may have kidney damage. well he did and ended up on dalysis. My husband must have had at least 25 surgeries after that . the last few monthe before he died he fell backwards i bathroom and broke his back in 4 places. 2 months later on our way to dialysis some cut in front of us and my husband sufferd a fractured hip and ruptured bowel. he was in icu for a month till he finally died.I had been with him through out hi 13 years of suffering but because he was in icu at the end i was unable to be with him 24\7.although we were all with him him when he died he was unconcious and we couldn't speak. I regret so much that i wasn't able to be with him as i always had been before he was put in icu.as i am writing this although it has been over a yea it still bring tears to my eyes and i wake up feelin so sad every morning. we were married for forth three years and i just can't seem that i will ever get over it

I am so sorry you didn't get to tell Joe bye. As hard as it is to go on without Charles I did tell him bye and that I would always love him. I also promised him I would be strong and I am trying to be. My birthday was Oct. 28th and he had told our 2 girls that he would not die on it. About 5 PM he woke and reached for me, hugged me and told me he loved me. I knew then he wouldn't make it to long. He was stubborn, he fought until 3:30 Am the 29th. He had the chance to talk to both our daughters and each of the grandchildren. I know God gave us a special blessing. Please email me any time.  Your new friend. Marilyn

You may have received 2 comments from me. I was having computer problems last night and received an error message when I tried to add the first comment

Corrine,

I am sorry for your loss. Life is so unfair. I wish I had some encouraging words but I don't. I have been taking it day by day just trying to get through the life I am left with. It has been very hard. The holidays were very difficult to get through. I am hoping this new year will bring some kind of joy back into my life. It has been 7 months since Jerry passed away and I will say I do not cry all day long anymore, but do cry often. I am getting out a little more, but everywhere I go and everything I do I am reminded of my husband. He is all I talk about and I'm sure people get sick of it every now and then, but he was everything to me. If you ever need to vent I am here to listen. Sometimes just sharing my pain with someone else who truely does understand what I am going through does help.